Sunday, January 30, 2005
okay. ive got a new fascination. im so into wrist cuffs now. especially black leather ones. seems like an overnight obsession. hmm. madness please.
uhm. i bought my levi's on tuesday. went over da moon when my mum paid. i still cant believe that i haf my own pair of levi's now. but i'll get over it. haha. don noe if i'll ever wear it out. maybe i cant bare to. LOL!
bought a Mango spag top. da colour of it just lured me to it. not exaggerating.
and THAAATS IT. nothing else.
speaking of which, i don tink im gonna get new shoes this year. which is just crap. wats with this year's new year please. how idiotic.
went swimming on wednesday, thursday and friday. okayyy. fine. not exactly swimming. more tanning. okay? but den again. that doesnt really apply. cos i aint that tan even after 3 continuous days. nonsense please. da sun was playing hide and seek with me. n da worse part was that da clouds and wind participated too. they were so enthusiastic! nevermind. at least i got a lil darker.
hmm. thats all for da whole week.
well well. da term tests are over. n boy were they S U C K Y. im so goin to F A I L. yes. i really L O V E term tests. but love fades. so im glad that da tests are over. P L E A S E lemmi retain so that i can undo all my mistakes, so that i can go for all my lectures and finally to do better in my tests n exams. yesssss. P L E A S E !!!!
ive been hooked on Ragnorak Online [ro] lately. i cant stop playin it. all i do is play all day. especially since its da one week hols for me. play play and more play. ro was my life. till today. aiya. da account expired la please. must pay. but baby n i are broke broke and more broke. so as da story goes - im bored like hell just cos i cant play. that so duh la please. online games are just too addictive. my advise is - don start if u don haf spare cash.
i just cant get enuff of shopping. all i tink about now is bags. shoes. clothes. mainly shopping la huh. aiya. madess la please. don say le. i just wan everything i set my eyes on. okay okay. not everythin. but everything nice that i like. ho-hum. not much of a difference. but hu cares. cant get them anyway.
D E A D .
uhm. i bought my levi's on tuesday. went over da moon when my mum paid. i still cant believe that i haf my own pair of levi's now. but i'll get over it. haha. don noe if i'll ever wear it out. maybe i cant bare to. LOL!
bought a Mango spag top. da colour of it just lured me to it. not exaggerating.
and THAAATS IT. nothing else.
speaking of which, i don tink im gonna get new shoes this year. which is just crap. wats with this year's new year please. how idiotic.
went swimming on wednesday, thursday and friday. okayyy. fine. not exactly swimming. more tanning. okay? but den again. that doesnt really apply. cos i aint that tan even after 3 continuous days. nonsense please. da sun was playing hide and seek with me. n da worse part was that da clouds and wind participated too. they were so enthusiastic! nevermind. at least i got a lil darker.
hmm. thats all for da whole week.
well well. da term tests are over. n boy were they S U C K Y. im so goin to F A I L. yes. i really L O V E term tests. but love fades. so im glad that da tests are over. P L E A S E lemmi retain so that i can undo all my mistakes, so that i can go for all my lectures and finally to do better in my tests n exams. yesssss. P L E A S E !!!!
ive been hooked on Ragnorak Online [ro] lately. i cant stop playin it. all i do is play all day. especially since its da one week hols for me. play play and more play. ro was my life. till today. aiya. da account expired la please. must pay. but baby n i are broke broke and more broke. so as da story goes - im bored like hell just cos i cant play. that so duh la please. online games are just too addictive. my advise is - don start if u don haf spare cash.
i just cant get enuff of shopping. all i tink about now is bags. shoes. clothes. mainly shopping la huh. aiya. madess la please. don say le. i just wan everything i set my eyes on. okay okay. not everythin. but everything nice that i like. ho-hum. not much of a difference. but hu cares. cant get them anyway.
D E A D .
**so far gone
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@ 01:12
Monday, January 24, 2005
i love this hi-dunk please. n ive never seen anyone wearing it. till today. this blardy guy was wearing it infront of me. on PURPOSE. okay. maybe not. but den again. im still irritated with huever this kuku may be. baaa.
**so far gone
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i wan so many tings. yet i have so lil money.
i have shopped seriously for 3 days. n i bought a horrifying number of clothes.
ONE pure milk shirt please. ONE!!! imagine that. n its a black shirt. meaning i cant wear it for CNY. wonderful. just wonderful.
today. my 3rd day of shopping. totally unsuccessful. i wanted to buy this purplish skirt. but couldnt really make up my mind if i really wanted that. so i din buy it. i saw a tube dress. tried it. n i din like it. i saw da wristband i liked, but i guess da black was sold out. so i moved on. i went here n der n everywhere. but all i saw, i din like. hmm.
i went to levis. wanted to buy da jeans i always wanted. but left da shop empty handed. i loved it. but i din get it. dats so HUH?!
money was kind of an issue today. but it wasnt really wat was stopping me.
somehow. i din like da tings being sold in da shops (except for da jeans), i prefered da tings pple were already wearing. ridiculous pls. lemmi gif u some examples. i saw this malay girl, n i totally loved da pants she was wearing. n der was this girl wearing this blue skirt, i wanted it! n another girl wearing this fitting berms, n it looked so good. wats wif me.
i wanna get my tongue pierced too. sammie's blog n pictures tempt me so bad. n i wanna pierce my naval too. i wan a new handphone. i wan my $159 crumpler bag. i wan everythin i wan!!! grrrr. i need money badly. i needa work. like NOW. intro me work pls. someone. anyone.
i guess ive decided not to buy anything for CNY. i can make do with watever clothes i have. well. uhm. depends. if i cant find anything i like. then this shall be watever it is. if i do find something i like. den maybe.
peace.
i have shopped seriously for 3 days. n i bought a horrifying number of clothes.
ONE pure milk shirt please. ONE!!! imagine that. n its a black shirt. meaning i cant wear it for CNY. wonderful. just wonderful.
today. my 3rd day of shopping. totally unsuccessful. i wanted to buy this purplish skirt. but couldnt really make up my mind if i really wanted that. so i din buy it. i saw a tube dress. tried it. n i din like it. i saw da wristband i liked, but i guess da black was sold out. so i moved on. i went here n der n everywhere. but all i saw, i din like. hmm.
i went to levis. wanted to buy da jeans i always wanted. but left da shop empty handed. i loved it. but i din get it. dats so HUH?!
money was kind of an issue today. but it wasnt really wat was stopping me.
somehow. i din like da tings being sold in da shops (except for da jeans), i prefered da tings pple were already wearing. ridiculous pls. lemmi gif u some examples. i saw this malay girl, n i totally loved da pants she was wearing. n der was this girl wearing this blue skirt, i wanted it! n another girl wearing this fitting berms, n it looked so good. wats wif me.
i wanna get my tongue pierced too. sammie's blog n pictures tempt me so bad. n i wanna pierce my naval too. i wan a new handphone. i wan my $159 crumpler bag. i wan everythin i wan!!! grrrr. i need money badly. i needa work. like NOW. intro me work pls. someone. anyone.
i guess ive decided not to buy anything for CNY. i can make do with watever clothes i have. well. uhm. depends. if i cant find anything i like. then this shall be watever it is. if i do find something i like. den maybe.
peace.
**so far gone
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@ 00:17
Monday, January 17, 2005
cant put how im feeling exactly into words. this picture best describes. if u don exactly understand wat da pic shows, its kinda down and dirty and misunderstood and a bit afraid as well. i dunno. im just feeling so like da dog.
**so far gone
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@ 00:59
quarrels between a couple.
so almost everyone says that it makes da bond between da couple stronger. is dat really true? has anyone ever tot otherwise?
come to tink of it. how can something like quarrelling make ur bond of love any stronger? doesnt it occur to any one that every time a quarrel comes about, whether its settled or not, whether we forget or not, da quarrel still replaces some love with hurt or disappointment or anger or watever?
wont der come a time when all da love gets replaced by other tings? or is it like most say, love knows no limits?
quarrels are such cliches.
sigh.
im supposed to be focusing on my term tests, which are starting TMR. but somehow, im just so not here. i don even noe where i m now. lost it seems. back to da old kinda days? my test are tmr n i noe nothing.
"that not everything is gonna be da way u tink it outta be,
seems like everytime i try to make it rite, it all comes down all me,
please say honestly u wont give up on me,
n i shall believe."
yahz. watever.
im happy.
so just go away.
so almost everyone says that it makes da bond between da couple stronger. is dat really true? has anyone ever tot otherwise?
come to tink of it. how can something like quarrelling make ur bond of love any stronger? doesnt it occur to any one that every time a quarrel comes about, whether its settled or not, whether we forget or not, da quarrel still replaces some love with hurt or disappointment or anger or watever?
wont der come a time when all da love gets replaced by other tings? or is it like most say, love knows no limits?
quarrels are such cliches.
sigh.
im supposed to be focusing on my term tests, which are starting TMR. but somehow, im just so not here. i don even noe where i m now. lost it seems. back to da old kinda days? my test are tmr n i noe nothing.
"that not everything is gonna be da way u tink it outta be,
seems like everytime i try to make it rite, it all comes down all me,
please say honestly u wont give up on me,
n i shall believe."
yahz. watever.
im happy.
so just go away.
**so far gone
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@ 00:32
Saturday, January 08, 2005
sigh.
so everyone seems to be growing up. its obvious by da way dey speak. no need for analysing machines, i can tell relying only on my senses that everyone around me has matured.
so over the years what have i become n what have i learnt? m i on the way to becoming da adult i always wanted to be? or m i still acting like a baby.
funny how i always try to be someone im not. funny how i always make da wrong decisions.
im so childish at times. i still havent learnt exactly how to be responsible for my actions. i never ever tink before i do something. its kinda stupid how i always regret da tings i do.
its sick how i always expect someone to be der for me all da time. i wouldnt rate myself da best of frens either. der haf been so many der for me, yet mayb ive taken it all for granted. im not very sure of it myself. but mayb thats just da way its been.
wat do i really care about? myself? i don tink so. my loved ones? well. yeah. to quite a major extent. my future? so i do care. but i just aint doing anything to show i care. so wat if i noe i care. der wouldnt even be a future for me to care about if i dont start doing anything about my life now.
its silly how i can always think bout such stuff, yet not do anything bout it later. actions speak louder den words. this i noe, yet i cant relate myself to it.
when im with da crowd, i just wished i was alone. when im alone, i just wished for someone to be der. wat do i wan really. i cant even make up my mind. so i always talk bout regretting this shit n that. but come to tink of it, im not even sure of wat i wan, hu m i to noe anything about regret?
dear god:
i pray that u would make me a better person. to do da tings that are right. i pray that u show me wat i can really be. help me make decisions that r honest n beneficial to da people arnd me. please take good care of everyone that i have forsaken, especially my mum n dad. pls give me da determination to go for all da lectures that i have to go for. pls open my heart n teach me wat love is. dear lord, please bring me closer to u. i need u badly now. i wanna thank you for all da wonderful tings in life and also thank you for all da bad tings too. for without da bad, i wouldnt learn to appreciate n get stronger. thank you so much for everything. pls bless all.
in jesus' name i pray,
amen.
so everyone seems to be growing up. its obvious by da way dey speak. no need for analysing machines, i can tell relying only on my senses that everyone around me has matured.
so over the years what have i become n what have i learnt? m i on the way to becoming da adult i always wanted to be? or m i still acting like a baby.
funny how i always try to be someone im not. funny how i always make da wrong decisions.
im so childish at times. i still havent learnt exactly how to be responsible for my actions. i never ever tink before i do something. its kinda stupid how i always regret da tings i do.
its sick how i always expect someone to be der for me all da time. i wouldnt rate myself da best of frens either. der haf been so many der for me, yet mayb ive taken it all for granted. im not very sure of it myself. but mayb thats just da way its been.
wat do i really care about? myself? i don tink so. my loved ones? well. yeah. to quite a major extent. my future? so i do care. but i just aint doing anything to show i care. so wat if i noe i care. der wouldnt even be a future for me to care about if i dont start doing anything about my life now.
its silly how i can always think bout such stuff, yet not do anything bout it later. actions speak louder den words. this i noe, yet i cant relate myself to it.
when im with da crowd, i just wished i was alone. when im alone, i just wished for someone to be der. wat do i wan really. i cant even make up my mind. so i always talk bout regretting this shit n that. but come to tink of it, im not even sure of wat i wan, hu m i to noe anything about regret?
dear god:
i pray that u would make me a better person. to do da tings that are right. i pray that u show me wat i can really be. help me make decisions that r honest n beneficial to da people arnd me. please take good care of everyone that i have forsaken, especially my mum n dad. pls give me da determination to go for all da lectures that i have to go for. pls open my heart n teach me wat love is. dear lord, please bring me closer to u. i need u badly now. i wanna thank you for all da wonderful tings in life and also thank you for all da bad tings too. for without da bad, i wouldnt learn to appreciate n get stronger. thank you so much for everything. pls bless all.
in jesus' name i pray,
amen.
**so far gone
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@ 01:39
well. let me see. urms on tuesday, i went to school at arnd 12? yeah. had maths quiz pls. i left 9 marks blank. n da quiz is 25 marks in total. so to pass is already a blessing. i had econs and creative writing later, but me n don decided to skip both of that n go shopping instead. so. i bought a pair of shorts from u2 and 2 tops from fox-women. basically. i spent all my pocket money for da week yes. after that went to baby's house for dinner and gaming session.
on wednesday, i went to school at 11. had cell bio tutorial. and later it was da faggot's lab time. darn ass. he's damn sickening i tell u. every single week he wears purple. n his actions. man. we all know he's gay, so actually he doesnt haf to try that hard to convince us that he is pls. spent da rest of da day at home. went swimming and sadly did not get tann.
thursday. best day of da week so far. missed da whole day of school. was KINDA not feeling well pls. had mc. so i missed da HPI quiz thankew. went to baby's in da evening. dinner n more gaming sessions again.
today. went to school at 2. skipped all of da morning lectures. i feel sicker den yesterday pls. im aching all over. and i just cant stop having goosebumps da whole freaking day PLS! it fels terribly terrible. i had dem when i felt cold and i had them when i felt normal n i had them when i felt hot! bloody lil clingy tings. watever. i was just zoinking out most of da time. more concentrated with my aching body with all da goosebumps den da tutor.
so i had my demostration TEST today. wat nonsense rite. a demo test pls. imagine me giving a demo on how to make ur own DIY perfume. pls la huh. just so wrong. it was quite bad. i was just doin fine at first. but later i felt like da teacher was writing down too many things that i started panicking. stupid yes?! omg.
she asked me this question : if i wanna put colour in my perfume, how do i do it?
>> alamak. y she ask me this rite?! everyone else before me got repeated questions!! she reuse all da questions. but when she came to me, she asked me this. wat nonsense PLS!!! i just answer with rubbish can. shitty.
er. moving on. had yoshi beef bowl for dinner. oooo. havent eaten it for ages, just tasted so good. n more gaming n gaming n gaming at baby's.
anyways. im so hook on this particular game pls. katamari dimension. hahaha. its a game about u making a big big big big big sized ball out of all da items u can find on earth to become stars in space. den this biggy ball would be put up by da cosmo king. LOL! its darn fun pls. so so so addictive. really cute.
anyhow. im like watching my hammies run da wheel like mad pls. dey look like their training demselves for da "hammies 5 km marathon". n garfield's wheel is like especially small, so she keeps sliding off da wheel. n she'll look arnd s if something or someone pulled her off. hahahaha. my cutie lil pies pls.
seems like i havent been talking much to jassie or vivien or anyone else lately. hope to catch up with everyone soon.
hmm. less stressed up now. altho my HPI test is on monday n my cell bio test is on wednesday. to add on, i have term tests da week after next. bloody fast pls. i need to start studying or at least start filling up my empty lecture notes. baaaaaa. running against time. wish i could plan my time better.
still amazed that its 2005 yet everything still feels so 2004. nothing has changed.
i guess thats all. since hammies are falling asleep, i shld too.
on wednesday, i went to school at 11. had cell bio tutorial. and later it was da faggot's lab time. darn ass. he's damn sickening i tell u. every single week he wears purple. n his actions. man. we all know he's gay, so actually he doesnt haf to try that hard to convince us that he is pls. spent da rest of da day at home. went swimming and sadly did not get tann.
thursday. best day of da week so far. missed da whole day of school. was KINDA not feeling well pls. had mc. so i missed da HPI quiz thankew. went to baby's in da evening. dinner n more gaming sessions again.
today. went to school at 2. skipped all of da morning lectures. i feel sicker den yesterday pls. im aching all over. and i just cant stop having goosebumps da whole freaking day PLS! it fels terribly terrible. i had dem when i felt cold and i had them when i felt normal n i had them when i felt hot! bloody lil clingy tings. watever. i was just zoinking out most of da time. more concentrated with my aching body with all da goosebumps den da tutor.
so i had my demostration TEST today. wat nonsense rite. a demo test pls. imagine me giving a demo on how to make ur own DIY perfume. pls la huh. just so wrong. it was quite bad. i was just doin fine at first. but later i felt like da teacher was writing down too many things that i started panicking. stupid yes?! omg.
she asked me this question : if i wanna put colour in my perfume, how do i do it?
>> alamak. y she ask me this rite?! everyone else before me got repeated questions!! she reuse all da questions. but when she came to me, she asked me this. wat nonsense PLS!!! i just answer with rubbish can. shitty.
er. moving on. had yoshi beef bowl for dinner. oooo. havent eaten it for ages, just tasted so good. n more gaming n gaming n gaming at baby's.
anyways. im so hook on this particular game pls. katamari dimension. hahaha. its a game about u making a big big big big big sized ball out of all da items u can find on earth to become stars in space. den this biggy ball would be put up by da cosmo king. LOL! its darn fun pls. so so so addictive. really cute.
anyhow. im like watching my hammies run da wheel like mad pls. dey look like their training demselves for da "hammies 5 km marathon". n garfield's wheel is like especially small, so she keeps sliding off da wheel. n she'll look arnd s if something or someone pulled her off. hahahaha. my cutie lil pies pls.
seems like i havent been talking much to jassie or vivien or anyone else lately. hope to catch up with everyone soon.
hmm. less stressed up now. altho my HPI test is on monday n my cell bio test is on wednesday. to add on, i have term tests da week after next. bloody fast pls. i need to start studying or at least start filling up my empty lecture notes. baaaaaa. running against time. wish i could plan my time better.
still amazed that its 2005 yet everything still feels so 2004. nothing has changed.
i guess thats all. since hammies are falling asleep, i shld too.
**so far gone
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@ 00:11
Monday, January 03, 2005
im like highly irritable these days pls. just feel like sleeping n never waking up. life is a routine. how interesting can it really get?
hmm. so der are all these things dat i really wanna do. den again. where m i gonna find da time to do them? seems like i dont even have enough time to sleep pls. or m i just sleeping too much? watever it is. its not right. everything aint right. nothing is working for me can.
maybe if i cut my hair, things would look slightly different. or would that only be in da angle of da mirror?
so bored. so broke. so gonna fail my tests. so unable to meet da assesment datelines. PLS!
holidays. damn. da hols r like ages from now. but i seriously need da holidays. yes. i noe its only been a month of school. n considering that i havent been to most lectures, wats all da fuss about rite? well. i really seriously dont noe. everything is just bad yes. so i tink dey are. so i make dem out to be. seems like its either my imagination is damn good. or everything is REALLY going bad.
boo! er. okay. watever. aiya. maybe if i tell myself tings are not that bad den dey wont be that bad. baaaa. like hu m i kidding pls.
nonsense nonsense nonsense. n here i go blabbering. enjoyin every stupid minute of it. thankew very much. my blog is rocking with activity.
time to shut up. god. have 8 oclock lesson tmr. i loveeee tp pls. tp allows me to haf a healthy lifestyle. a wake-up-early-sleep-early lifestyle. endurance 8 to 6 oclock day. grrrr. fiak my new year resolution of going for every single lecture. i'll tink bout it when i get up tmr yes. which depends wat time i get up.
zzzzzz.
hmm. so der are all these things dat i really wanna do. den again. where m i gonna find da time to do them? seems like i dont even have enough time to sleep pls. or m i just sleeping too much? watever it is. its not right. everything aint right. nothing is working for me can.
maybe if i cut my hair, things would look slightly different. or would that only be in da angle of da mirror?
so bored. so broke. so gonna fail my tests. so unable to meet da assesment datelines. PLS!
holidays. damn. da hols r like ages from now. but i seriously need da holidays. yes. i noe its only been a month of school. n considering that i havent been to most lectures, wats all da fuss about rite? well. i really seriously dont noe. everything is just bad yes. so i tink dey are. so i make dem out to be. seems like its either my imagination is damn good. or everything is REALLY going bad.
boo! er. okay. watever. aiya. maybe if i tell myself tings are not that bad den dey wont be that bad. baaaa. like hu m i kidding pls.
nonsense nonsense nonsense. n here i go blabbering. enjoyin every stupid minute of it. thankew very much. my blog is rocking with activity.
time to shut up. god. have 8 oclock lesson tmr. i loveeee tp pls. tp allows me to haf a healthy lifestyle. a wake-up-early-sleep-early lifestyle. endurance 8 to 6 oclock day. grrrr. fiak my new year resolution of going for every single lecture. i'll tink bout it when i get up tmr yes. which depends wat time i get up.
zzzzzz.
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